To my angel in heaven...

To my sweet baby in heaven,
I wish I could hold you one more time. I will never forget those few moments that we shared. Why you left us so soon I guess I will never know. It is 2 weeks today that I lost you and the pain is still so great! I just wish I could wake up from this nightmare and know that you are safe in my tummy. I will never know your laugh or your smile. I will never get to watch you while you sleep. I will never get to kiss you sweet little face. I will never hear you say mommy I wuv you. But I think what hurts the most is I will never get to watch you play with your brother Cayde. I would dream about that when I was pregnant with you! Now I am more lost than ever. Our plans and lives have come to a stopping point. My prayer is that you are safe in heaven with Jesus. Please hold him close for me till it is my time to come home. My sweet little boy never forget that mommy loves you. I will NEVER forget you! You will always have a piece of my heart.

With all my love,
Mommy

Baby Laboski in heaven...

So most of you have heard that we lost our baby boy 9 days ago. It was the hardest day of my life. I had a full labor and delivery and Matt and I got to hold him for a few minutes. I was 15 weeks pregnant so he was about the size of my hand. I am trying to keep my head up but it is very hard. I know my angel is in heaven with Jesus but oh what I would give to have him here. I pray that God just helps our family smile again. I also pray that when we go to my Doctor appt. on the 20th that he have some answers. Matt and I still want to give Cayde a little brother or sister but I am still very shaken up by my experience. I think that if we have some answers it might help all my anxiety.
Thank you all for you thoughts and prayers...I know that I have amazing friends and family.